frustrated me
I am in the middle of a very frustrating time for me. My utmost desire is to be a teacher, but the bureacracy makes me exhausted. And let's just face it, education professors don't know how to teach. Isn't that ironic?
I tried to talk to my supervisor about how I'm not going to get in enough hours during my internship to receive credit and she just kept telling me I'll be fine. Which I won't. Even if I go every day, during exams, on teacher workdays, staying late to tutor, and doing duty with my teacher, I still will be 11 hours short of the requirements. Which is a problem, since the woman who is going to be grading this is not the type to give you a break. She failed a girl's presentation once for being late because the girl started throwing up in the middle of class on the day she was supposed to do it and had to go home.
I'm scared.
I need this credit to graduate. I can't become a teacher without it... and as it is, I don't know when I'm going to work my work study because all of the other kids are already scheduled in the evenings and as I going to be busy from 7 to 4... I guess I can work weekends...
I am just so very frustrated. And not handling it well at all. I find myself endlessly irritated at girls at school, who were my friends before I left and I guess that means they should still be but who are still doing the same stupid childish things they have always been doing. I yelled at a friend the other day because she was crying over a boy that she has been un-dating for forever and I am tired of girls acting like their existence and self-esteem and ability to have a good time rest on boys and alcohol.
So my two friends who have time for me an aren't wrapped up in those two things are treating me better than they should considering my grouchiness... Thank goodness they are around. You know, an actual full-night's rest might help since I haven't had that in a few days, too. I just needed to complain here a little though, away from the girls who are driving me crazy... I don't know if this counts as culture shock because I've always been disgusted with my peers as far as this goes. Tolerance is a beautiful thing, and I'll work on having some more of that because young people do stupid things and that's normal... but right now, I'm running low. That's all.
I tried to talk to my supervisor about how I'm not going to get in enough hours during my internship to receive credit and she just kept telling me I'll be fine. Which I won't. Even if I go every day, during exams, on teacher workdays, staying late to tutor, and doing duty with my teacher, I still will be 11 hours short of the requirements. Which is a problem, since the woman who is going to be grading this is not the type to give you a break. She failed a girl's presentation once for being late because the girl started throwing up in the middle of class on the day she was supposed to do it and had to go home.
I'm scared.
I need this credit to graduate. I can't become a teacher without it... and as it is, I don't know when I'm going to work my work study because all of the other kids are already scheduled in the evenings and as I going to be busy from 7 to 4... I guess I can work weekends...
I am just so very frustrated. And not handling it well at all. I find myself endlessly irritated at girls at school, who were my friends before I left and I guess that means they should still be but who are still doing the same stupid childish things they have always been doing. I yelled at a friend the other day because she was crying over a boy that she has been un-dating for forever and I am tired of girls acting like their existence and self-esteem and ability to have a good time rest on boys and alcohol.
So my two friends who have time for me an aren't wrapped up in those two things are treating me better than they should considering my grouchiness... Thank goodness they are around. You know, an actual full-night's rest might help since I haven't had that in a few days, too. I just needed to complain here a little though, away from the girls who are driving me crazy... I don't know if this counts as culture shock because I've always been disgusted with my peers as far as this goes. Tolerance is a beautiful thing, and I'll work on having some more of that because young people do stupid things and that's normal... but right now, I'm running low. That's all.
posted by Angie-la at 4:16 PM
1 Comments:
i'm sorry things are so yucky! and by the way, it's totally culture shock; take it from someone who has experienced her fair share of it. give yourself time to readjust to living in the US and make sure you get lots of rest and time to relax. i know that sounds ridiculous right now, but your health is more important. as for teaching, look at me! i'm going through alternative certification. they hired me without the credintials, they'll hire you too! schools can't be picky nowadays b/c they are desperate for teachers:) and you'll be a great one so they will definitely pick you! if not, you can always more to texas and we'll hook you up...
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